Episode #56: Holiday Hodgepodge
Sometimes you just have a wobble.
It’s to be expected. We’re all human. Sometimes things get to you – especially in the midst of a pandemic – and your thinking begins to get away from you. It happened to me last week and I shared the story on this episode, because I think it’s happening to a lot of people and it’s important.
I won’t go into the details here, but suffice it to say that I got a bit overwhelmed last week with a couple of last minute musical projects, and one of them challenged my weaknesses a bit – a sure-fire recipe for me to get down on myself. And yeah, I panicked a bit. Briefly. The good news is that I’m experienced enough now to recognize this sort of thing happening, and to see where my thinking is going, and to get a handle on it.
That’s why I had a wobble and not a complete meltdown.
It’s about perception in the end. I’m a great catastrophizer and I’ve had to learn the hard way to shift my thinking about things. To see opportunity where I used to see disaster. To look at a given situation and begin to see how it could go great instead of how it could go wrong. Believe me, I’ve been down the rabbit hole many, many times in the past and it’s not a place I want to be.
So I wobbled a bit, but managed to steady the course, pour myself into preparation instead of anxiety, and get through the week successfully (which brings with it a heaping pile of confidence and momentum).
This is a year for rabbit holes. I’ve struggled and perhaps you have too. I’ve learned heavy lessons about letting go and having faith and self-belief. My wobble is a reminder to me – and to you – that it’s possible feel anxiety, recognize it, steady the ship, and begin to think differently. If I can do it, you can too.
And if you need a little distraction to pull you away from your negative thinking, today’s episode offers a distressing and darkly funny story about Santa Claus, as well as positive talk about Pac-Man Fever, Bahamas, the great and terrifying Joan Jett, and my friend Karen Emeny.
There’s also a stunning bit of new information about Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes). I hope the episode warms your cockles. If it did, or if you’ve got music you think I should sample, please contact me and let me know. Hope you’re safe and well this holiday season, friends. Enjoy!